Will against time

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So…it’s September. Three months and a few days away from 2015. Sounds like a bad joke when I look back at the past months and the things I haven’t done, yet; and the things I’ve tried and failed at. It’s actually quite funny how life works. You can plan something to the dot, and when life happens, you will be so thrown off course you won’t even remember where the dot was in your plans. But I’m learning to just get used to that, to manage it, and to keep moving (emphasis on the ‘learning’).

One thing I’m striving to hold on to is this thing of not giving up on what you want, no matter how much it may seem as though it doesn’t want you. It’s just a matter of time. Sometimes we want the right things but at the wrong time. What’s important is not to stop wanting it, no matter how long it takes to get to it.  ‘Cause if you stop wanting, you stop living, you just exist. ‘Cause living is about having something to look forward to, something to pursue, something to get up out of bed for. Lose that, and you’re a zombie, the walking dead.

Remember that story of the lame man in John 5? That man who had been an invalid for 38 years. Jesus could have asked him a lot of things, even pushed him in the pool himself, or stretch out his hand and heal him; but when Jesus learned that the man had been there for a long time, he asked a very important question.
“When Jesus saw him lying there and learned that he had been in this condition for a long time, he asked him, “Do you want to get well?” John 5:6
One might say it was obvious he wanted to be well, he wouldn’t be there if it wasn’t so. But Jesus knew the ability of time to kill the will, to extinguish desire. And rather than just heal the man, he first worked on his will, resurrected his desire; because where there’s a will, there’s a way, not excuses. The guy’s response was an excuse, his will was injured. Sounds familiar to another blog post ne? Well, repetition never killed anyone, it’s a different perspective this time anyway.

So yeah it might be September and I might not even be close to the things I wanted to achieve by now, but I won’t stop pursuing those things, I won’t stop wanting.

Comments

  1. Unknown6 September 2014 at 07:00

    Sometimes these 'things' it's like they have ears and eyes...when they hear or see you coming they just 'gooi'. At times I feel like just disappointing them and give up...lols. Thanks for the motivation.

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  2. Gugu Ndlovu (@gusquare)6 September 2014 at 08:23

    I know exactly what you mean! Glad someone else is motivated from me trying to motivate myself, lol. Thanks for reading BB! 😉

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